Posted on October 21, 2015
Patience has eluded me my entire life.
I am a type A, overachieving, perfectionist. People mess me up all the time. Making a mistake is unacceptable. (And embarrassing).
I am impatient when people are not acting like adults (or how I think they should act).
I am impatient when you do not drive the speed limit…5 under is getting us nowhere…I might as well get out and walk!
I am impatient when I have explained math 2 times. You need to get it. I don’t care that you are nine and you have growing pains. Figure it out.
I am impatient when I feel like I have answered the same questions more than one time. How else do I explain so that you get it? Why don’t you get it?
In a nutshell, I am a delight.
And we have been transplanted into a new place where:
-I want to sit and whine because all the new has been harder on me than I thought and I’m tired of putting on a brave face.
-I don’t quite drive the speed limit because I’m not exactly sure where I am going. (Or I am driving exactly the speed limit because I don’t have time to be stopped for speeding and you need slow down and be more patient)…
-I don’t really understand how things work at this new school…can you please explain it to me again.
….do you see the pattern?
I want to be involved and know my place at school and at church. I want to know people and their story and have a few experiences behind us.
I am always about 3 steps passed where I need to be and I’m learning that this is not how I am going to operate here.
I need to slow down and listen to the story so that I get to know the new person.
I need to slow down and let you drive 5 miles under the speed limit because it only takes me 5 minutes to get anywhere so I’ll never really be that late.
I need to explain math again and again until you feel confident and ready for your test…. Because unless I can figure out how to teach you how to be pretty and “marry up”, you’re gonna need math.
(She’s got the “pretty” down…now to “marry up” )
Are you finding yourself rushed and hurried and impatient? Or are you in a season where you need more time and more answers and more investing?
I pray joy and peace are your absolutes today.